I know that I mess up sometimes. I will push back plans to allow my friends to see me. I understand pushing the time back would upset you but i hoped you’d understand. It was last second but you’ve seen me all week. For you would still see me that day anyways.
I try my utmost to make up for mistakes. Go far out of my way to please and appease you. Will walk to the ends of the earth for you. But when you ask me to do that constantly i get tired. Physcically traveling long distances by foot, day after day, blowing off important things to show you your value to me , then scholding me for it.
I’m not perfect and never will be. That’s part of being human.
But don’t sit there and tell me I don’t appreciate you. I constantly take you out even when im low on money so you can do what you want. Don’t sit there and call me names and telling me you hate me, with some thrown in vulgar words as well. Simply because I make a small mistake. None the less when i feel sorry and am trying my hardest to make things better, you continue.
You make me feel like the happiest and luckiest guy in the world some days.
Then others you make me wish for a bullet in my brain.
A Lost Lover
